To you, with love

 My dear love,

I opened my eyes to find you sleeping in peace beside me. The innocence of a baby is reflected on your face. I felt the eternal moment each time you moved in his sleep.

The eternal moment when I found you inside a lost tunnel. The tunnel I entered and found no way to escape. When I knew the doors of life were closing upon me, I heard a window creak. A ray of light entered the dark tunnel. The light blinded my eyes for moments.

And then I saw you. Standing tall, firm with a mild smile on your face. When you woke up I suddenly felt shy to have kept my eyes fixed on you.

The mists had gathered all over the dawn and you held my hand. You knew my days were numbered but could never express the pain you felt to let me go. I could understand that you were trying to initiate a conversation but felt your voice choke up.

I felt it too! To assure you that I will see through this journey, I came ahead quickly to give you a tight hug. That was an eternal moment. The mists covered up in our eyes but we concealed it with strength.

When I opened my eyes slowly upon waking, I saw your silhouette beside the window pane. No, I was not dreaming. You made tea for me and kept the teapot on the side table. You were waiting for me to wake up and did not make a disturbing sound.

My vision was blurry for a few moments, making me wonder if I was in a trance. Then, I saw you smile, and that ripped through my heart. I could not imagine being anywhere else without you and rose up with a determined spirit.

I stepped forward holding your hand and stepped towards the balcony, attached to the room. The view outside was my dream place. A place I always wanted to be in. Forever, for eternity.

Mountains. Yes, there is where I wanted to live. I wanted to sleep amidst them. I wanted to breathe there. I wanted to fly like a bird above the snow-peaked mountains.

I wanted to move like a gypsy through the untrodden path. I wanted to breathe my last amidst the mountains.

The ruggedness of the mountains, the carefree nature of the mystical beauty, and the serenity were something I inhaled for moments together. My life was as mystical, as undefined, and free-flowing as the mountains.

The silent mountains bore testimony to the silence in my heart. The morning mist, with love — gave us new hope and faith. The fog engulfed us with a warm eternal hug.

I knew, deep within, that it was only you who could see through the crazy twists in my life. I knew there was no one else who could touch me the way you did. I had been through the worst and found you, standing beside me, all through, all along — unconditionally.

The cool breeze swept past our faces and we stood in silence, talking to ourselves about their life. You came closer to give me a hug that gave me all the peace she craved all through life.

You gave me a new reason to live — albeit be it for the moment. You ensured that I would be fine and would lead a healthy and happy life again. You gave me all the time I needed, running from one corner to another, to ensure my recovery.

You knew that together we would make it. You knew that my strength will see me through and your willpower will make the journey worthwhile.

The unsaid words, your untold conviction in me paid off. Every time you reached out to me, you reminded me of how fulfilling my life is. It was just a matter of time. You knew that I would rise up again and fight with death.

Slowly and gradually, you wiped all the scars of her life, the abuses she experienced from childhood, and the trauma she went through — with your firm grip.

You wanted me to be in my dream place and when everything else was falling apart, you ensured I don’t. So here I was.

My love was as deep as the depth of the mysteries of the mountain. It was you and nothing apart from you.

Your’s forever, Me